Hello there,
Stefanie, here.
You may recognize this space more readily as - On the Sauce.
In a cycle of endless births and deaths, I’ve lain to rest the intention and identity that this online warehouse of my expressions held previously by that moniker. That I myself had by that moniker, honestly. Anyway, if I was once (and I was, once) “On The Sauce” - I hope it’s safe to say I’ve climbed off.
Sauce lives somewhere here. So does someone else, though. So, too, does another intention.
Thresh & Bone could change tomorrow, or ten years from now, or 525,600 minutes from now. I don’t know. But I do know I feel able to express the intention my heart holds for what I place here, from that costume of ephemeral words.
For the last handful of years, I’ve been a student of death and dying. There is no other way to say it but to say that I feel called to this transitory and mysterious place as the best one from which to serve Life and The Mystery, as this version of my Self and myself.
It is my heartfelt prayer that your attention here do…well, any number of things I guess.
It is my prayer that a bard’s testimony is a reverent bow back to Life. That my words somehow serve that which I wish to serve.
It is my prayer that anyone stumbling/meandering here experience some very basic and approachable information about being a mortal person in a modern world.
I pray that you experience something that is beautiful to you, here.
I pray that you learn something that feels safe to approach at your own pace about death and dying - not just the one and final time, but the many times we compost ourselves into a next iteration, over and over again.
May my dances, conversations, evolutions, and passages through the ever-present portals of Life and Death, be of service to you somehow.
Please engage at your own pace, at your own - dare I say - risk (of an important and wise kind), with a lot of consideration towards your nervous system.
May our bodies be the guides.
Here’s what you can expect going forward:
✔️ Stories and images related to my work as a ritual artist, specifically with Nature as the medium for creating temporary, archetypal, transformative works of individual and collective art. An intuitive modality for connecting with Nature, crossing Life’s thresholds, meaning making, and cultivating a mindfulness that comes with integrating internal and external awareness. I think I will call these Field Notes for now.
✔️ The continuation of The Apollo Diaries - I have really struggled and wrestled through whether or not to continue sharing what comes through for me through the lens of Apollo’s death - mostly because of the stigmas that live in our culture about how long it is okay to talk about death and be experiencing something related to a death, “long” after it has occurred.
Apollo continues to be a lens that helps me track the myth of my own life, and is a helpful, grounding, orienting point. Through how I consider my relationship to him, and look at myself since the moment of his physical death, I enjoy many interesting and rewarding pathways of self-reflection, and a kind of embodied integration that feels like a good skill to cultivate as beings who live in the wake of departed things as part of our assignment to be here on Earth. And if nothing else, it’s an ongoing love letter to my dearest friend and teacher.
✔️ Intimate Encounters with the Ordinary - This feels like a way I can play with sharing some of the longer-format ways I like to express myself, and incorporate more of my poetic, mythic, archetypal voice to various experiences, learnings, and teachings. Which includes but is not limited to the threshold of life and death with dying beings, in a number of forms. Also, as way to invite y’all (whatever y’all means here, which definitely means ALL in the very least) into some learning experiences/encounters in the time to come.
✔️ Something that is a mystery to us both/all - 🤷
If you choose to stick around, what you’ll receive next will be a page dedicated to sharing a library of works I’ve been a collaborator/student/facilitator/chanel of/for - over the last handful of years, that I've been exploring as my own Life’s medicine. The need to do that privately was (and in many ways, remains) very crucial to me. But there has been some shifting in my own tectonic plates that says to externalize and form some things, at my own pace.
You can always choose to leave, at any time, for any reason. Take care of you.
In a future whose timeline I cannot exact, I will offer subscription options here. That day isn’t today. When that today arrives it will come with clear communication and the ability to choose your own adventure, honor your capacity, and be at your discretion. And always include a way to experience something meaningful and beautiful for no monetary investment.
Thank you for being part of a continued unfolding. I am grateful.
Many bows,
xx
S | Thresh & Bone
thank you!